I just came back from G-Star.
Although it was an event where Nicang led the charge for cosplay, it wasn’t all bad.
Like other cosplayers, being a model for photos, exploring booths, and meeting fans were all memorable and fun experiences.
Someone once said you need to live a dense life. Turns out they were right.
As you age, it feels like time speeds up. If you only stick to your usual routine, you become dull over time. Before you know it, time has flown by with nothing noteworthy accomplished.
You need to seek out new and exciting experiences to stimulate your brain. That’s how the stimulated brain forms vivid memories and doesn’t make time feel so fast.
In that regard, I haven’t felt time speeding by lately. If it were the past, I’d be lamenting how a year has already passed, and next year I’ll be a year older.
These days are different. The recent G-Star, the previous Pro League live, Si Hyun’s observational classes, and meeting editors to hire them were all new experiences for me.
There may have been some challenges, but there was no room for boredom. I was living a dense life.
Though not every day, often streaming also contributed to breaking the monotony of my life.
Even playing the same Abyss, each day’s stream felt different, adding variety to my daily routine.
[So the conclusion is that we like it, right?]
[Just look at the chat, it’s colorful, lol.]
[Ah, lol, we’re watching Kayak’s happy life.]
[Their faces may be ugly, but they have kind hearts…]
[Kayak Life Guardians, whoa.]
[While Kayak lives so passionately, Kayakers… I’ll stop here.]
[Meanwhile, they’re living a monotonous life themselves.]
[Mother’s tears.]
[Shut up.]
[‘A Dense Life’]
[Life is whatever, but my body has density.]
[These guys can’t even wake up after hearing this.]
[Not knowing you’re in a crisis is the real crisis, whoa.]
[Kayak’s Foot Wiper has donated 10,000 won!]
“Are you going to wear something cute if you’re grateful? Like at G-Star?”
Then came messages like “Oh, cosplay!” and “Camilla is here!” I just shook my head at that.
“What do you mean ‘wear something cute’? Who dresses like that while streaming? You need to wear comfy clothes to stream for a long time. Are you looking down on the female streamers who wear pretty outfits now…? When did I say that? Just get out.”
This was a minor side effect after G-Star.
Unlike Nicang or Riri, Kayak’s change of clothes was just that—a change of clothes. Ever since that was revealed, viewers kept asking her to change outfits. They called it cosplay just for changing clothes.
It was a bonus that I got a basic skin look from Camilla gifted by Nicang. She said it wouldn’t suit her anyway, so she’d give it to me. Well, I accepted it happily. The clothes were pretty, and sometimes wearing them alone could lift my spirits.
But that didn’t mean I’d wear whatever the viewers wanted. Just like any human relationship, being entirely agreeable makes you lose your charm. I definitely didn’t want to be an easy woman, an easy streamer.
Those kinds of outfits should only be worn occasionally for events. If you see the same thing every day, like that dense life I talked about earlier, you’ll get tired of it. So, balance is key.
[Wow, you sure can talk long about how much you dislike it]
[You said we were precious, so why are you acting like this? T_T]
[Haha, I’m not precious enough for you to change clothes for me]
[I’m so tired of seeing the same tracksuit and hoodie every day]
[They don’t get it even when you say no, huh?]
[It’s a battle you can’t win anyway]
[Don’t provoke Kayak!]
[New viewers should just stay quiet, lol]
More importantly, these people really seem to dislike me. They could at least be a little considerate.
Is it just me, or have the new viewers really increased lately? Ever since the viewer count went up, the proportion of viewers who don’t listen has definitely risen along with it.
That meant it was time to establish some order.
“Hmmm…”
[No, don’t do that!]
[Info: Bad things happen when Kayak is deep in thought]
[Stop making that dissatisfied face]
[Something ominous is coming]
A few quick-witted viewers caught on, but it was already too late.
The viewers’ chats were coming in, but it was already too late.
Should we just start with the cam for now?
*Click*
With a single mouse click, my broadcast was sent out, and the cam screen that was reflecting me vanished.
[What??]
[The cam is off!]
[Did you touch something wrong?]
The relatively new viewers seemed to be in a panic, saying the cam was off and asking to turn it back on, still struggling to grasp the situation.
In contrast, those who had been watching my stream for a while recognized the situation immediately.
[Oh damn, those newbies made Kayak mad!]
[I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry!]
[Please don’t do that… please don’t do that… please don’t do that… please don’t do that…]
[I can’t see anything, Mom… I can’t see anything, Mom… I can’t see anything, Mom…]
[It’s so dark, I can’t see anything!]
[Just one click and you’re triggering mass insanity, lol!]
[This is power, this is authority!]
[In that moment, the world went dark.]
[Mouse click of national power, whoa!]
[Kayak-style showdown on!]
[I knew something was up when those brats started asking for attention.]
[Kayak-1st Monster has donated 1000 won!]
– It’s the newbies’ fault, but why do we have to suffer? Please, just give us a break!
“Originally, it’s collective responsibility. The chat is kind of like a group. When you live in a group, even if you didn’t do anything wrong, you still get in trouble together. It’s like group projects in college or the military… Uh, wait, that’s not something I should talk about.”
I brought up the military as an example, but I couldn’t say much about it. I had actually been there and tasted the essence of group living, but that was all in the past now.
Not long ago, another female streamer got destroyed for a faux pas about the military. Kim Jae-jun and Yusia had warned me to be cautious regarding that topic.
I was also being careful about what I said. In many ways, it seemed wise not to mention the military at all during broadcasts.
It would be a wise decision in many ways.
[Ghostly sense of doom ㄷㄷㄷ]
[National-level doom sense ability;;]
[What the heck is national-level?]
[One individual representing the state?]
[Are you saying one person can collapse a nation!!!]
[Even in the midst of this, dodging the doom like a pro]
[Group living, that’s right, that’s right]
[You should’ve managed the influx of newcomers yourself, ah haha]
[Just stay away for a month…]
[Yeah, it’s nice to have a no-cam broadcast for a change]
[Actually, this is the original intention]
[Not ending the broadcast while keeping discipline, where’s the fun in that? ㅇㅇ]
“Hmmm….”
It seems I definitely had a bit of a rebellious streak, like a green frog in a way. When people accept things so easily, it just makes me feel oddly relieved.
So, I clicked the mouse again.
Click-
[Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you]
[Is this how you calm down?]
[Originally, the kayak has never been angry or sulking, anyway, moving on]
[Ah… such a broad-minded person]
[At that moment, the world brightened again]
[I can see ahead… I can see ahead… I can see ahead… I can see ahead… I can see ahead…]
[The kayak’s power can even make the blind see ㄷㄷ]
[Hmm, hmm, that’s right, big sister can make 20,000 people laugh and cry with just one click of the mouse]
[??? : I can dominate the viewers’ emotions!]
…This is getting interesting.
Since the favorable reactions were flowing in again, I felt a slight urge to play a prank.
This time, I decided to adjust the size of the cam. I didn’t turn it off, but the cam size on the broadcast screen gradually shrank.
[Why again this time?]
[Oh no, seems like this woman is getting into it, heard laughter just now]
[Emotion domination on]
[Is it fun to threaten with the cam screen? Is it fun?]
[Of course, it’s fun, you little shit hahaha]
[If 20,000 people are doing this, I’d find it fun too]
[Feels like a little kid is controlling the amusement ride]
[I don’t want the kayak to get even 1g smaller….]
[The kayak’s crazy shenanigans have begun!]
[One wrong word from a newcomer and look what happened]
[Keeping discipline tightly today haha]
[Please stop…]
So, I kept adjusting the cam size up and down while watching viewers’ reactions.
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