I just didn’t like something about it.
I wanted to mess up the Commander’s nonchalant expression.
Honestly, it was a stupid thing to think, but despite everything, I really liked the Commander while also not liking him at all.
I was very grateful for his help, and it felt nice.
But the fact that he looked indifferent when I expressed my gratitude really rubbed me the wrong way.
“…You like my chest, don’t you?”
“No, this is sudden…”
“Is it because I keep thanking you and you’re being overly polite?”
I said this while looking up at the Commander.
There was… almost no distance.
Right in front of him, it was a bit hard to look up since he was taller than me, but we were close.
The Commander was showing a flustered look as he looked at me.
I wasn’t as flustered as I thought I’d be.
Maybe I liked how the Commander’s expression was twisted more than feeling embarrassed?
“Go ahead and touch it.”
“………”
“I could only think of this as a way to repay you. Do you not like my chest?”
It was embarrassing to say this, but I did.
The Commander reacted every time I spoke.
He seemed like he wanted to say something but couldn’t. It was funny.
Just moments ago, I thought what I was worrying about was ridiculous.
“It’s big, smooth skin, and my chest is pure white.”
“Lindera…?”
“Didn’t you usually stare at it?”
I didn’t actually stare at it on purpose, but I knew the Commander had seen my chest at least once.
I didn’t notice it before, but now I could sense those gazes better than I could back then.
“If you touch it, I’m sure… you’ll feel good too. You’ll be satisfied.”
“No matter what, I still think this is a bit…”
“What’s the problem? We’ve done worse things.”
“……….”
The Commander went silent at my reply, but honestly, it impacted me quite a bit.
To be honest, we had done wilder stuff.
It was ridiculous for the Commander to get all flustered about simply touching my chest when I had already done worse things.
Maybe I was feeling this way because I had a few glasses of champagne a moment ago?
No, I shouldn’t be the type to get drunk off that.
I don’t know.
Honestly, I didn’t understand the pattern of my own behavior, but I was just acting on impulse.
“…Aren’t you going to touch it? I’m saying thank you but you won’t even reciprocate. You should at least do this one thing that came to mind.”
“…I don’t think this is right.”
“……..”
Something just didn’t sit right with me.
The way the odd tanning brat acted at the party seemed a bit cool, but also.
“Really? Then whatever.”
“…Yeah, don’t do anything weird… Lindera?”
I took the Commander’s hand.
To be precise, rather than ‘took,’ it was more like I lifted and started raising it.
Since I was shorter than the Commander, I didn’t have to raise it too high.
Not all the way to my head, it was below my shoulders anyway?
-Squelch…
“……….”
“How about now? Are you still not going to touch it?”
I smiled slightly.
No, I smirked when I said that.
The contrast between this silly scene and the way I punched that guy at the party was hilarious.
Well, you could say this kind of behavior was just like the Commander.
That’s why it was even more amusing.
“…I don’t think this is really okay.”
“Considering what you’re saying, your hand isn’t exactly leaving though.”
“……….”
It was truly funny.
He was clearly refusing with his words and saying he wouldn’t do it, yet his hand still stayed right there on my chest.
Even though I was still holding the Commander’s hand.
Is this what being a guy means?
Since I was a man, I found the situation even funnier because I could understand it better.
If a pretty girl like me, with big breasts, suddenly told a guy to touch them… Of course, he’d be surprised.
But even so, it was hard for a man to avoid such a situation, and while I was pondering over it…
“Ugh…”
“………”
That’s how I ended up letting him touch.
If I were in the Commander’s shoes, I would’ve been the same.
Ah.
Did that jerk who kept insisting I drink mean to set this up?
“Such big breasts, and they feel so good; it’s hard not to touch them without thinking…”
“……..”
“That guy earlier probably wanted to touch too. To get me properly drunk… while I was out of it. In a situation like that… ugh… preventing any resistance…”
“……..”
As I continued, the grip on my chest tightened.
Was he getting angry?
His expression seemed to be twisting even more than before.
Even though it was close to an expressionless face, I could read it.
“If that had happened, I wouldn’t have been able to do anything… ugh… if you hadn’t come, I would’ve… just been messed with on my chest, and if that happened… ugh… ugh…”
“…Stop saying weird things.”
“Why not? Are you… jealou—”
In an instant, I was stunned by my own words.
I hadn’t expected to say something like that at all.
It was just casual blabber, flowing out of my mouth without thinking.
The Commander wouldn’t actually think something like that about me.
Just because he was touching my chest and his expression was twisted, he’d called me a vice commander!
“Hehe… just joking.”
“…What if I did?”
“That’s impossible. You don’t really see me as a woman anyway.”
“……..”
For some reason, the Commander didn’t respond to my words.
What was this?
Something felt… odd.
But I didn’t know exactly what was odd about it.
“Why?”
“You don’t think I see you as a woman?”
“Isn’t it just me looking at you as a vice commander?”
He himself said that last time.
Why is he asking me this?
I couldn’t understand it.
Hmm.
I couldn’t figure out the reason no matter how hard I thought.
“…If I didn’t see you as a woman, would I be doing this?”
“Ugh…?”
Suddenly, he gripped my chest tightly.
Due to that, a much more painful sound than before slipped out of my mouth.
It wasn’t terribly painful; it just hurt quite a bit as he squeezed my chest.
I couldn’t help but utter this.
“I’ve always seen you as a woman.”
“Y, yes…?”
“Why are you so competent normally but can’t think straight at times like this?”
“Ugh…”
“If I hadn’t seen you as a woman, we wouldn’t have had that incident before.”
“Wait…”
The situation was confusing, and the fact that the Commander was gripping my hand tightly hurt, causing me to speak out.
Because he clearly said I was a vice commander just the other day.
“In the past… ugh…”
“You didn’t like being viewed that way, did you? Even after that incident, I intentionally said it to avoid such considerations…”
“Ugh… ugh…”
“I don’t get how you want me to act if you keep acting like this.”
“Stop it… agh…”
The Commander’s gaze was different now as he looked at me, and the way he grabbed my chest was too different.
It was a whole different vibe compared to when he held my wrist before.
“Commander… wait…!”
“Just saying seductive things… asking a man to touch your chest… isn’t that too defenseless? It’s not like I’m into men… that’s just weird.”
“Haah… ugh… ugh…”
The Commander continued to fondle my chest.
Ignoring my pleas to stop, he kept squeezing and handling my breasts, his movements relentless.
I found myself powerless, trapped, and unable to escape in front of the Commander.
Going back wasn’t an option as I was still being touched.
“Just… I… I was wrong, so… please… go easy…”
I knew I wasn’t thinking straight, but I had absolutely no idea the Commander would act this way.
Normally, he would just brush off what I said, letting it slide.
I didn’t anticipate showing this side of him, nor did I think I’d ever be subjected to this.
Yet strangely, I didn’t feel any aversion to it.
What could it be?
Could it be that the champagne I had sipped made my head a bit fuzzy?
I didn’t want more, but I also didn’t feel like I was done either.
“Lindera.”
“Y, yes… haah… ugh…”
“…You say you dislike this, but is it true?”
“That’s… not it… ugh…”
“…That’s the problem.”
“Ugh!?”
Suddenly, he pinched a particularly sensitive spot.
Until just now, he was merely playing with my breasts, but now he was actually… touching the sensitive parts.
Naturally, my voice rose loudly, and I felt a jolt of bliss.
“…Stop… stop…”
I retreated from the Commander.
Though it was just a couple of steps, I managed to create a gap… at least, for now… to stop him from touching my chest.
I was definitely breathing heavily, and the Commander was still looking at me.
It was only I who felt like I was in a tough spot.
The sensation of the Commander groping my chest moments ago still lingered.
“I… I really didn’t think you’d see me like that…”
“Then?”
“So I just… I don’t know… didn’t like something about it…”
“Then?”
“Um…”
It was even more embarrassing now than when the Commander was touching my breasts.
It was just a matter of saying it.
I had plenty of reasons why I didn’t like it and why I did it…
“…It’s your fault, Commander.”
“…Mine?”
“…Yeah.”
I had no idea.
I didn’t know why I was suddenly acting like this.
I didn’t understand why I told him to touch my chest.
And why I had stepped back only to step forward again in front of the Commander…
“………”
“What are you trying to do?”
“…I don’t know, either.”
Now, what was left to do… I didn’t even know.
My heart raced, and my mind was spinning, and I had no idea how to move.
So I decided to just act on my own whims.
Thinking about this tomorrow would definitely make me wanna pull my hair out or scream, but…
“…Just stay still.”
Saying this, I slowly began to kneel down.
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