Chapter: 672
My life was like a long cave.
There was no light, so I couldn’t see an inch ahead.
I had come too far to turn back, so I couldn’t even think about it.
Yet, it was a life without even the slightest hope that it would end.
I keep walking and walking.
When I tripped and fell, I got up and walked again.
I was afraid of the dark and my body started to tremble, but I held back and started walking again.
That’s how I lived.
No, would it be correct to say that I lived?
I asked myself and also answered.
If you ask me a question, I will answer.
It was something that someone had to do, so I did it.
Then, I asked him again about the answer.
Can you really make excuses for something you had to do?
Is there any cause and belief within that act?
‘…’
I didn’t answer.
It’s true that I couldn’t do it.
I know it.
That there was nothing like that inside me.
Since when have I been dreaming of negotiation?
I never dreamed of it.
Because I never had it or wanted it in the first place.
Then, what is my cause?
What did I live my life for?
I was swept away by the rushing current and couldn’t hold on.
First of all, let me make an excuse.
There was no choice.
It was the best I could do.
Otherwise, I die.
That’s why I had no choice.
I lived thinking like this.
‘Really?’
If you ask again, the answer is set.
‘No.’
It’s all just excuses.
It would have been better if I had never entered the cave in the first place.
I walked in on my own even though I knew it.
Why? Because there was nowhere else to run.
So I went in and searched for it endlessly.
I’m talking about the person who pushed me in.
Someone had pushed me into a cave, and I had to live here, so there had to be someone to blame.
Even when I shiver in the dark.
Even when I was walking aimlessly, unable to find hope.
And then there are times when I get tired and sit down and cry.
I found someone to blame.
I knew it.
I already knew that there was no one to blame.
Only.
I just needed someone to blame for not admitting it.
That was the kind of life it was.
A life that ended in darkness, as if running away and not being able to reach the end of the cave.
A life like that of a bug that ran away and died without ever seeing a single light.
I lived like that, died, and returned.
I never thought it was a miracle.
I’m afraid to even express how happy I am because it’s something I never wanted.
I just got it, so I’ll live. Let’s live a little differently this time.
Let’s live in a remote mountain village without anyone knowing, without rats or birds knowing.
I thought about living that way.
‘It didn’t go as planned.’
Nothing really goes as planned.
The unstoppable gust of wind swept over me again.
When I opened my eyes, I found myself in the eye of a typhoon.
‘Wasn’t it something that could have been avoided?’
Is fate something that mere humans cannot stop?
Will we eventually be swept away by the storm?
If so, what should I do?
I am.
What should I do?
‘What are you thinking about?’
‘I,’ said.
‘Just make sure it doesn’t happen.’
If you have no choice but to be swept away.
Let’s make the wind that blows shallower.
Or, let’s make it so the wind doesn’t blow.
Wouldn’t that work?
Cheeeeek-!
My fever is rising.
The seething emotions affected my eyes.
Energy seeps into my body.
There are signs ahead.
If left alone, it is an omen that the wind will sweep me away.
It will be a typhoon that will shake not only me, but the whole world.
So, I have to chew and swallow it before it blows.
I need to deal with this now, before it becomes a bigger disaster.
For what?
Taking the place of the Divine Sword.
‘To finally save the world… .’
…
…
Save the world?
‘I?’
Kwadddeuk–!!
Bang-!
The greed that was flying towards Cheonma changed its angle and hit the tree next to it.
Saaaa… .
The trees’ thorns scattered like fog, unable to inflict direct damage except through their powers.
I changed the angle of my gaze and had to look at the Heavenly Horse with my body stiff.
“Phew… Whew… Whew.”
The heat seeps into my breathing, making it ragged.
My body feels hot with emotions that have filled my head.
“Haa… Phew… .”
I took deep breaths and covered my forehead with my palm.
Something was strange.
Save the world.
I froze at my own words.
“Whew… Whew… !”
Cool your hardened head beyond the rough breathing.
‘I save the world?’
It was too narrow a reason to come to mind.
‘Who is saving what?’
Kill the Heavenly Horse to save the world.
Save the world by taking the place of the divine sword.
It was something done under that pretext.
But.
‘Am I qualified to do that?’
Swish.
My hands feel weak as I think about it.
“… Haa… . Ha… .”
I forgot what my initial purpose was after returning.
‘Run away and live moderately.’
That was my goal.
I need to run away from what I’ve done and hide from what’s going to happen next.
That was definitely the goal.
As things got more complicated and more entangled, didn’t you start to change your mind?
Now that we have something to protect, let’s prevent a bloodbath.
That’s how it started.
We must move for what must be protected, regardless of the means and methods.
I was convinced of that.
He doesn’t hesitate to kill anyone.
In my previous life, I caught the guy I wanted to kill and turned him into a mine.
Most of them were people who would later be killed.
Some were to be thrown away, while others were to be used as shields.
Even though it’s something I chose to do because I’m a guy who deserves to die, I already know that it’s not the right thing to do.
But I didn’t care.
There is no such thing as foolishness, and guilt has long since been thrown to the ground.
That’s how you prepare.
Is this really the work of saving the world?
‘Maybe so.’
The purpose you are trying to achieve may be like that.
One.
‘Do you really think that’s what it’s for?’
Doing things to save the world.
Did I really think that?
It’s creepy.
‘Where did it start to go wrong?’
The thoughts that came to my mind took my breath away.
Don’t you already know?
I’m saying that I have no interest in saving the world.
That’s just a bonus.
‘I don’t care if this world collapses or not.’
Since when did you start thinking like a hero?
Something feels wrong.
My head, which had been hot, is slowly cooling down.
The pupils began to return to normal.
Only then can you see it.
Stop-.
This is Cheonma looking at me while bleeding.
There is a sad look in her eyes and blood is flowing from the corner of her mouth.
Those eyes were annoying.
Is it because our eyes are so damn similar? It makes me even more annoyed.
And yet, I ask myself from within.
‘That bleeding woman.’
I’m asking if it’s really the disaster you think it is.
‘If it’s not a disaster, then what is it?’
I made up my mind.
It’s just that it looks exactly like Wi Seol-ah, so it makes you hesitate.
It will definitely be like that.
How to kill a heavenly demon.
No, I got hope that I might be able to kill her.
My greed can even devour the power of the Heavenly Horse. I am convinced of that.
If you do that, it’s something you can just rush in and chew on right away.
“Why didn’t you avoid it?”
My mouth was asking a question to Cheonma.
“…”
“You could have easily avoided it. Why didn’t you?”
The curtain broke.
So, Cheonma was hit by the attack, but in reality, it was at a level that could have been avoided.
But Cheonma did not avoid it.
It was the same as before. She was dragged in when she didn’t need to be, and she didn’t fight back against my attacks and just took them all.
“Just now, you. You were thinking of doing this too, right?”
My greed ran towards the Heavenly Horse’s barrier.
If she had eyes, she would know.
That means I can chew and swallow the barrier.
Hiss.
The broken barrier of the Heavenly Horse began to regenerate.
It seems that it can be simply broken, but it is impossible to completely eliminate it.
Even so, it is no different that opportunities can be created.
Even though she was tempted to avoid me, she just silently watched as I lunged toward her.
“Why didn’t you dodge? Did you think you could win without it?”
“…”
“Answer me. What on earth were you thinking—.”
“I thought that’s what you wanted to do.”
“What?”
Cheonma answered my rough question calmly.
“Because you looked uncomfortable. Because you wanted to do it. So I was there.”
“What are you talking about? Answer me straight….”
“No?”
The words I was about to say while tilting my head were momentarily blocked.
But it was only for a moment.
“So, are you going to die for me?”
I wanted to lose, so she took the hit.
If you say that you were trying to drag me, then I was dragged in.
Since you’re trying to kill me now, does that mean you plan on dying in the end?
Cheonma answered that question right away.
“I wouldn’t have killed you.”
I ground my teeth with subtle conviction.
“This is ridiculous. What I just did was like child’s play.”
Didn’t it look like I was struggling to kill her somehow?
How can you be so damn sure?
“I wouldn’t have done that.”
“So, why are you so sure?”
“I don’t know. But I think so. Besides.”
Cheonma wiped the last of the blood away with her sleeve.
“My sister told me not to fight carelessly.”
“…under.”
Whoosh whoosh-!
She held a flame at her fingertips.
Casts a spear by repeating compression and rotation.
It has a lot more energy in it than when I first used it.
The limits of what I can confine and control.
It’s one-third of the amount I have.
If the amount of holy water used earlier was enough, it’s three times more than that.
“You don’t think I can kill you?”
That’s ridiculous. It’s not anyone else; it’s the Heavenly Horse in front of you.
Even if it looks and feels different from what I remember.
It means that she is no different from being a being that caused a disaster in a previous life.
But you don’t think you can kill someone like that?
“Stop talking nonsense.”
I aimed the completed spear in front of Cheonma.
“If you’re not going to rebel, just stay still. It’s easier that way.”
Don’t be fooled by that appearance.
“I will kill you here.”
“…”
Even after the announcement, Cheonma showed no reaction.
She just looks at me with her purple eyes.
It’s always that reaction.
“Yeah, let’s see how far you can avoid it….”
“No.”
Stop.
The moment I was about to change my posture, I froze for a moment at the words Cheonma spoke.
No?
“What are you suddenly saying is not true?”
“I am not ‘you.’”
What the hell is that?
I frown and make a face.
“My name is… it’s not something like ‘you’… .”
Then, Cheonma, who was about to speak, suddenly closed her mouth.
A feeling of suffocation creeps into her expressionless face.
‘Name?’
It’s the name of Cheonma.
I think Gu Hee-bi called her something earlier. Is that what she’s talking about?
No, was there even a name in the first place?
She called herself Cheonma. She never said anything else.
“What is your name?”
“…”
I asked her what to say, but Cheonma still remained silent.
If she had said no, there should have been a name to spit out.
At that time.
“I don’t know. I don’t remember.”
Cheonma bit her lips as if she was frustrated and said that.
“… What was my name?”
Instead, she looked at me and asked.
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