Chapter 631: A Letter to My Future Self
A few nights later.
After finally coaxing Little Ying You to sleep, Zhang Xiaoying gently stroked her hair and whispered to Young Master Sang, who was lying next to her, “Aren’t you going to sleep, Husband?”
“You should sleep first.”
Zhang Xiaoying nodded obediently, leaving a candle burning for Young Master Sang, pulling up her blanket, and slowly dozing off with Little Ying You.
Once both his wife and daughter had fallen into deep slumber, Young Master Sang finally took out the half-torn letter by candlelight.
… Xu Hongyi’s causation had vanished completely.
Even retrieving the Causal Lotus, there was hardly any trace of causation related to her in the entire Abyss Realm, as if this person had never existed at all.
Even among the Primordial Deities, the vast majority of causation had disappeared without a trace.
“…The eighth Primordial Deity?” When Young Master Sang found Huo Longyuan, Huo Longyuan pondered for a moment and slowly shook his head, “I do know the last Primordial Yuan Spirit was born late. But I have never communicated with her.”
“Perhaps she never even took form, or maybe she’s been sulking in her own realm since gaining sentience. Why are you suddenly asking this?”
“…It’s nothing.”
Young Master Sang didn’t know how to explain, so he fell silent.
Nian Nian and Yan Rouwan even forgot the matters related to her. Even the memory of the attack against them morphed from seven Primordial Deities to six.
It felt as if, overnight, only Young Master Sang remembered Xu Hongyi’s existence.
He remembered that girl who loved to wear red clothes.
Loved to laugh.
Loved to call him brother sweetly.
And the final gift that girl gave him before leaving was currently held in his hands.
For days, Young Master Sang had dared not open it.
He couldn’t quite articulate what he was afraid of.
Beside him, he could hear Little Ying’s steady breathing and Little Ying You’s faint snoring. Under the dim candlelight, Young Master Sang silently stared at the letter, and after a long while, slowly began to unwrap it.
He still wanted to see what words the First Deity would leave for himself.
“Hello.”
“To my future self, whenever that may be.”
“When you read this, you must have forgotten your identity as the First Deity and become the human of your dreams.”
“You might think I’m crazy. Clearly, I could have everything, yet I chose to throw it all away to live as an ordinary person.”
“Hey, you guessed right. I am indeed crazy.”
Young Master Sang: “…”
For some reason, he could faintly imagine the mischievous grin on his face while writing those words.
It was quite a strange feeling.
He truly had no memory of being the First Deity.
But those words felt like something he could write.
He could almost envision the First Deity’s mental state while writing this letter.
…What a chance to mess with himself!
Himself! To tease himself!
Such a thrilling and fun thing, not doing it would lead to lifelong regret.
“On a serious note.”
“I have confidence in you because I believe in myself.”
“I know that my perilous journey will definitely lead me to what I desire.”
“And when you see this letter, I think I must have already obtained it.”
…And still playing riddles. Young Master Sang twitched his mouth.
Is my personality really that horrible?
“But.”
“Though I hold no yearning for being the First Deity.”
“There’s one thing I’ve always been quite confused about.”
“If you’ve found the answer.”
“Then go find her.”
That was the entirety of the content.
Shorter than he imagined. Just as much of a riddle as he thought. Filled with a narcissistic sense of dark humor.
But the most annoying thing was.
Young Master Sang oddly understood this warped humor.
Even that seemingly unfinished statement, he managed to grasp the meaning in a way that was both exasperating and amusing.
…The Primordial Deities couldn’t understand human emotions.
So, I don’t know how to respond to Xu Hongyi’s feelings.
But you’re human now.
This mess is yours to clean up.
That was it.
Young Master Sang didn’t know what to say for a moment. He felt a mixture of laughter and a bizarre sense of destiny.
As if years ago, when he wrote this letter, he’d already foreseen today’s events.
“If you’ve found the answer… has it?” Young Master Sang let his eyes droop.
He should think he found the answer.
His beloved wife lay beside him, with their love’s fruit sleeping between them.
So, can he now give Xu Hongyi a response?
Honestly, Young Master Sang didn’t know.
His feelings towards Xu Hongyi had always been complex.
Now, he held neither hatred for her nor suspicion and wariness towards the Primordial Deities.
Initially, Young Master Sang couldn’t understand Xu Hongyi’s actions, but gradually, he realized that stripping away her identity as a Primordial Deity, she might just be an immature young girl.
Used to being self-indulgent, used to going all out for someone when she got love-struck.
Once he understood, he suddenly found Xu Hongyi might not be so unbearable after all.
Maybe her way of loving someone was childish. Clumsy. It could even be harmful.
But in dealing with love, she had never shown a hint of insincerity or deception.
Every action was sincere.
And a young girl’s sincerity was already remarkably precious.
Closing the letter, Young Master Sang looked up at the ceiling.
“That’s what I say…”
“But now, even if I want to give Xu Hongyi an answer, where do I go to find her?”
Maybe she was still at the stage where the Primordial Yuan Spirit hadn’t yet taken form. No one knew if he still had a chance to meet her.
…Besides, Young Master Sang wasn’t brave enough to meet her.
Until now, he still hadn’t figured out why Little Ying You’s life force was drained by Xu Hongyi’s causation.
Even though emotionally, Young Master Sang favored the idea that no matter how crazy Xu Hongyi loved, she wouldn’t harm his most important daughter. There had to be a different reason behind it.
But until he clarified this reason, as a father, Young Master Sang wouldn’t put his daughter in danger so easily.
“What I have to do right now is to find the culprit who drained Little Ying You’s life force as soon as possible.” Young Master Sang sighed inwardly.
Thinking of this, Young Master Sang suddenly remembered something.
Speaking of which, even Huo Longyuan and the others had mostly had their causation with Xu Hongyi restored. None of them remembered her existence.
So why did he still remember?
Could it be that the First Deity’s Yuan Spirit was so powerful that even the other Primordial Deities couldn’t escape the restoration rule, but he could directly ignore it?
That didn’t make sense.
Young Master Sang knew the First Deity was stronger than the others, but essentially, everyone belonged to the Primordial Yuan Spirit.
The Primordial Yuan Spirit was ultimately still part of the Primordial Deity, not a true Primordial Deity. Despite controlling the rules, they couldn’t transcend the rules themselves.
Then why was his causation with Xu Hongyi still there?
Or is it possible… that he missed something?
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