Chapter 608, Me? The First Deity/Demon?
Yan Rouwan cried for a long time.
Only when she was tired of crying did she gently curl up in Young Master Sang’s arms, silently lowering her head.
“…So.”
Young Master Sang asked somewhat speechlessly, “You’re pretending to be aloof on purpose because Nian Nian taught you?”
“Yeah.”
Yan Rouwan pouted with grievance: “That little brat told me that if I deliberately acted like I forgot you, you would definitely come chasing after me like crazy.”
“I’ve never experienced what it feels like to be pursued by someone I like, so… I just wanted to try it out.”
In the end, she added seriously, “It’s not my fault; it’s all Nian Nian’s doing! She’s the mastermind behind this, trying to break us up!”
Young Master Sang couldn’t help but chuckle at the situation.
I have to say, although Nian Nian can be quite the troublemaker at times,
At least in this matter with Senior Sister Yan, she accidentally played matchmaker successfully.
“Let’s talk about Nian Nian later.”
Young Master Sang thought for a moment and asked, “I have one more thing I want to ask Senior Sister Yan.”
“At that time, Senior Sister Yan told me to first retrieve the Causal Lotus’s mask mode. What was the intent behind that?”
“Why can’t I see my own karma using the Causal Lotus?”
Although Yan Rouwan had explained that it was because she had been entangled with Xu Hongyi for too long, accumulating too much of her karma,
Young Master Sang knew that was just a perfunctory excuse.
She hadn’t told the truth.
Yan Rouwan stared into his eyes for a moment and suddenly sighed deeply.
“…I’ll say this.”
“You’ve pretty much guessed it for yourself, haven’t you?”
“You’re really just asking me to confirm the answer you want, right?”
“Why not be a bit bolder and trust your own judgment?”
Young Master Sang fell silent.
Seeing him silent, Yan Rouwan gently cradled his face:
“Or are you… afraid?”
“Just like I was before awakening my memories.”
Young Master Sang wasn’t sure if Yan Rouwan was right.
In truth, as she said, some things had already become self-evident; not to mention Young Master Sang, even Li Shanyan had probably guessed it long ago.
After all, one or two coincidences could be explained away.
But when too many coincidences pile up, they become facts.
Why did Nian Nian choose him as a host?
Why could he still use the abilities retrieved by Yan Rouwan through the mask mode?
Why couldn’t he see his own karma with the Causal Lotus?
Why was Xu Hongyi so obsessed with him, refusing to give up?
“So.”
Taking a deep breath, Young Master Sang revealed a wry smile: “I… am the First Deity/Demon?”
Yan Rouwan didn’t answer; she just quietly looked at him.
It seemed she was waiting for Young Master Sang to slowly accept this fact.
Young Master Sang slowly exhaled and closed his eyes.
…Even though he had mentally prepared himself.
After receiving Yan Rouwan’s confirmation, Young Master Sang still felt a bit dazed.
After all, in his impression, the Primordial Deities were powerful like gods, far removed from his world.
And he was just a small fry who had started from the Punishment Department, used to struggling and crawling in a mire.
Suddenly one day, someone told him, “Actually, you’re just as impressive as those gods. You’re even the most impressive one among them.”
This feeling was somewhat akin to suddenly becoming rich overnight, but also different.
Because if he suddenly became rich, he would smile widely, but suddenly becoming the First Deity/Demon didn’t bring him that level of joy.
It was like he had to accept a stranger version of himself.
“Being the First Deity/Demon means…”
Young Master Sang murmured: “I’m still like you all, yet to retrieve my memories, right?”
“That’s indeed a blind spot in our knowledge.”
Yan Rouwan shook her head: “When your primordial spirit reincarnated, you destroyed your physical body, sealed your memories, and didn’t tell either of us where the two were located.”
“How to retrieve your memories, maybe only you know.”
Young Master Sang remained silent for a long time before slowly speaking:
“Well.”
“When I retrieve my memories… will I still be me?”
Or rather.
Young Master Sang wasn’t worried about himself.
He was worried about whether he would still treat Little Ying and the others the same way after regaining his memories.
Upon hearing this, Yan Rouwan’s expression unexpectedly relaxed.
“I might not have been able to answer you before.”
“But now, I can tell you clearly.”
“After retrieving all my memories, I am still Yan Rouwan.” She looked seriously into Young Master Sang’s eyes and said.
“Everything I’ve experienced in my long life has shaped who I am today. Those things won’t disappear with memories being sealed, nor will they be replaced when memories are retrieved.”
Young Master Sang paused, then broke into a smile, shaking his head.
“…Yeah.”
“I should be confident in myself.”
The way I love Little Ying and the others today.
After regaining my memories, I will still love them like that.
“Why am I suddenly thinking about such philosophical topics?”
Young Master Sang sighed in self-deprecation, gently hugging Yan Rouwan in his arms: “I have to admit that the reason I’ve been resisting acknowledging the possibility that I’m the First Deity/Demon is that I’m avoiding these memories.”
“But thanks to you, Senior Sister Yan, I’ve figured it out.”
“…I want to retrieve my memories.” Young Master Sang said softly.
“Are you in such a hurry?” Yan Rouwan was a bit surprised, “The other deities/demons don’t even know you’re the First Deity/Demon yet. Isn’t it better to finish dealing with their matters first?”
“Let’s do it simultaneously. After all, with you, Nian Nian, and Li Shanyan taking care of the Abyss Realm, I actually don’t need to get too involved.”
A mysterious, unexplainable glint flashed in Young Master Sang’s eyes: “Moreover…”
Seeing him hesitate to speak, Yan Rouwan seemed to understand something, carelessly remarking: “Thinking about Xu Hongyi?”
Young Master Sang didn’t answer.
“I’ll state this first.”
Yan Rouwan’s tone wasn’t particularly friendly: “Actually, Nian Nian and I have always known about Hong Yi’s feelings for you.”
“But back then, the seven deities/demons attacked us together. She was involved as well.”
“So, Nian Nian and I don’t think she’s any different from Ancestor Cang and the others. They’re all of the same ilk.”
“We don’t think it’s unreasonable for you to deceive her. She did far worse things to us.”
“Of course, if you really can’t bring yourself to do it, just pretend we never said anything.”
“…Who told us that we’re just creations made to entertain you?” Saying this, she slightly pouted and turned her head away.
Seeing her puffing her cheeks, Young Master Sang couldn’t help but laugh and poke her cheek.
“You guys are not mere creations.”
“After all, whether it was back at the Water Moon Sect or later at the Sang family, everything I experienced with Senior Sister Yan is genuine.”
“You will always be my Senior Sister Yan.”
Yan Rouwan didn’t get angry over Young Master Sang’s flattery.
But the corners of her mouth had already curved into an irresistible sweet smile.
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