“Honestly speaking… I’ve long lost any aversion to wearing women’s clothing.
After all, not all women’s clothes are those weird outfits.
Moreover, most styles that common folks wear don’t show much skin, which makes it even easier to accept.
Even the skirts I wore were mostly long skirts, so there was practically no exposure.
If I wore clothes that showed skin… well, it would be freezing cold.
In any case, the point is that I no longer felt repulsed by women’s clothing.
Unlike before, nowadays I always walked around in women’s clothes.
It was true.
Back then, there was hardly a difference compared to wearing a regular suit like an average guy, but now… I casually wore long skirts and dresses too.
“Kyle.”
“Yes?”
“I think I need a little more time to think.”
This made the situation more difficult.
Just because I didn’t feel embarrassed about women’s clothing didn’t mean I had turned into someone who felt no embarrassment whatsoever.
Just yesterday, when I was about to change clothes in my room and Kyle walked in, I kicked him out because I was too embarrassed.
That’s why the current situation was quite troublesome.
What’s more, right now, it wasn’t embarrassment about women’s clothing but about exposure that was more overwhelming.
“Um, can I choose the wedding dress… just a little later? We still have plenty of time, right?!”
Of course, compared to the dress Kyle had given me before… this dress had less exposure.
Well, it definitely had a lesser degree of exposure compared to that.
Except for the fact that my cleavage was fully visible and my back was quite exposed.
“Sophia, didn’t you say yesterday that you thought it would be fine?”
“Y-yeah, but! I didn’t know there were only dresses like this!”
“….”
“Ugh, it can’t be helped, can it?! I’m choosing a wedding dress for the first time ever!”
Even when Kyle looked at me with those pleading eyes, it didn’t matter.
It was really my first time choosing a dress that I would wear, not just look at.
Honestly, they all looked similar to me, but it was a given that they all had some level of cleavage or back exposure.
No matter how much I might be carrying the blood of a succubus race, I wasn’t perverted!
I always paid attention to exposure even in my regular clothes.
When going on dates, while it was important that Kyle thought I looked pretty, the level of exposure mattered even more.
I already had a good figure.
In the past, I would sometimes curse at myself while bathing, thinking I was useless, but still, everything that needed to protrude did… well, you get the idea.
My breasts and hips were definitely noticeable… you know what I mean.
“Why does everything have to be so revealing….”
That might be why I was more sensitive about exposure.
If I had a body that didn’t attract attention, it might have been less embarrassing.
But it wasn’t like that.
Even without showing flesh, just my body drew attention.
“Sigh…”
“Sophia, what’s wrong?”
“…No, it’s not that…”
I was at a loss for words with Kyle.
As he said, I had assured him yesterday that it was fine, so here I was, looking at wedding dresses.
It wasn’t like he suddenly dragged me here either; we had agreed on it clearly, so it was really awkward!
“Ugh…”
Besides the exposure, the dresses themselves looked pretty.
I wasn’t a fashion expert, but it was definitely beautiful.
The pure white wedding dress and veil were honestly stunning.
I bet ordinary village girls dreamt of wearing dresses like that, which nobles wear.
But the problem was, I was not one of those ordinary village girls!
I mean, sure, I might have been once, but now I had come too far for that.
Initially, I was the duke’s tutor, but now I had become the duke’s lover.
It was certainly a bit far from being ‘ordinary.’
“Kyle, just asking in case… it’s not like I want to scold you or anything, I’m just genuinely curious.”
“…?”
I had a slight suspicion.
Kyle was someone who secretly had desires, but he didn’t show them overtly.
So it was merely a fleeting thought at that moment.
If it were true, I could just lightly bop him on the head, but if it wasn’t, then it wasn’t.
“You didn’t deliberately prepare only dresses like this, did you?”
“….”
Common sense dictated there couldn’t be such revealing wedding dresses out there!
Though the dresses were somewhat different from my previous life, it still couldn’t be.
I figured no one who would buy or rent a wedding dress would be a pervert who loved exposure.
Absolutely not!
“….”
“Kyle?”
“….”
“N-no way!”
I knew it!
He pretended like it was nothing, but secretly this boy had some hidden desires.
Of course, that was part of Kyle’s charm as well.
“Sigh…”
“Haha…”
Well… I suspected it anyway, to be honest.
After all, I had been with Kyle long enough to understand his pattern of behavior.
It had been ages since I first met him, way back in our childhood.
So it was only natural that I’d know by now.
If I didn’t predict it after all this time, it would mean I had no interest in Kyle!
“I can’t believe it… We’ve been together for years, and you’re still acting like this?”
“I’m sorry…”
“I thought you could at least give it some thought.”
He really was a dunderhead.
It had been nearly half a year since we started dating, even longer than that since we first met.
Does he still not know me well?
“Sophia hates revealing clothes. So, you purposely….”
“…Well, that’s not completely wrong.”
“So that’s it.”
“….”
This left me somewhat speechless.
Because I actually did hate wearing revealing clothes, and I had always disliked that kind of thing.
Since Kyle felt the same, he must have prepared these secretly.
*
To get straight to the point, I decided to put things on hold for now.
After setting an appropriate line between Kyle and me, I would decide.
Anyways, Kyle would be wearing a perfectly ordinary tuxedo.
Besides, all the other matters related to the wedding were things the servants of the castle were supposed to take care of.
“Cleavage…”
I was staring into the mirror, loosening my shirt buttons slightly to check out my cleavage.
If I had seen this back then, I would have thought differently, but… it just didn’t provoke any thoughts anymore.
If anything…
I just thought it would probably lead to a lot of sweat in the heat… that was about it?
After all, it was my body.
Normally, anyone who looks at their own body lustfully is definitely a narcissist.
“Was this what they wanted to see…?”
I found myself staring at my cleavage in the mirror, pondering.
I also liked Kyle’s body.
It was actually a fantastic body.
He had solid muscles and an incredible balance, making it enjoyable to look at.
But even then, I had no intention of going through a wedding with thoughts of Kyle’s muscles in mind.
“….”
Perhaps living as a woman changed my way of thinking.
“There will be a lot of people, right?”
Yeah, it was a wedding after all.
Of all things, it was Kyle’s wedding.
It was obvious there would be a massive crowd gathered.
But, honestly, I didn’t care about that anymore.
In the past, I was worried about what the nobles would think of Kyle marrying a commoner, but… looking back,
I realized that was an utterly useless worry.
“If the duke has any issues… it would just be their own stupid fault.”
Common sense dictated that the Duke of Eristirol, or rather, a family called the Duke House, was powerful.
I didn’t know much about Eristirol, but I knew enough about that.
Their status was just below that of the royal family, after all.
“Sigh…”
Anyway, the conclusion was that it was far more embarrassing to show my body to Kyle than worry about other people’s eyes.
I had seen Kyle’s body countless times, but I hadn’t shown him mine nearly as much.
“…Is that a bit unfair?”
I had seen Kyle’s body plenty, even his important bits.
I had touched and done… stuff with him too.
Kyle had been oblivious to this, but it was a bit unfair.
“Exposure…”
I decided to change my perspective a bit.
How much must Kyle want to see it… since, generally, he wasn’t one to demand much and hardly ever showed his desires.
On the contrary, it was wrong that after nearly six months of being together, we still hadn’t progressed much beyond where we started.
In all honesty, it was my fault.
“Maybe just a little bit… might be okay.”
After all, it wasn’t like I was exposing myself fully.
Just a glimpse of cleavage here and there wouldn’t be that bad.
If it was that type of dress, wouldn’t Kyle handle it nicely?
“For the time being… No exposing my midriff or thighs at all….”
Some wedding dresses indeed had sheer materials.
Or even designs that made the thighs completely visible.
Those were the type of dresses worn by late 20s nobles who loved to bask in the attention of men at parties.
But I absolutely detested being looked at by others through such exposure.
No, it wasn’t that; I just didn’t want anyone except Kyle looking at my body.
Seeing myself in a wedding dress was unavoidable during the ceremony, but I absolutely didn’t want to appear in a dress that exposed much skin.
If I was to wear such revealing clothing, it should be when I was alone or maybe just for Kyle.”
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